I told him the truth

Apr 27, 2022

Dear abundance tribe, today, I wish to share with you another excerpt from my book.

“I could not keep these feelings to myself. I was beginning to lose sleep. I was also withdrawn from everyone. I knew the longer I remained mute, I was probably going to do something stupid. Something stupid like storming into Kem’s apartment and getting naked before him. Something stupid, like fucking him and later regretting my actions.

God was talking to me as well. I knew the only way out of my feelings was to tell my partner what I had under my sleeve. God was talking to me. I knew telling my partner was going to snap me out of my feelings for Kem. God was talking to me. I knew that sleeping with Kem should never be an option. I knew that it was possible to walk away from my toxic marriage and still attract Kem or a replacement in the future. It became clear that I did not need to sleep with Kem to keep him. I have slept with my partner for 10 good years, yet, I did not succeed in keeping him.

You see, Shane, I did not fully understand what God was doing with me. I just knew somewhere, that I had to self-disclose. I did not want to sin. At least I was still a Christian, and I still had some fear of God in me. I had to speak my truth to my partner. I knew I was saving myself by calling him, even though I had an idea of what he could say. My prediction was accurate. That night, I picked up my phone, at 10:00 pm Central Time (CST), but it was morning West African Time (WAT). I told him that I wanted to talk. I burst into tears, Shane. I was literarily crying, as though I had eaten the forbidden fruit. Oh, I wish I did, at least that could have made up for the pain and shame I had to endure, after my confession”

Today, I want you to do this activity on addictions. Get real with yourself by taking this activity.

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Listen here: https://anchor.fm/bisola-mariam/episodes/Addiction-activity-e1hkjrg

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